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Journal Entry: Sun Jan 29, 2012, 9:23 PM
There are things about everyone that people do not know. I guess, being on dA for nearly five years now, I should be able to open up about things that are in my life, as well as the art that inspires me. I want to say, that most people come to my page and think "Oh, a loli, she must be so kind!"

- Well, despite how much I wish it were that way, that's not the case. :')
(However, my friends ~Ribbonheart and *Princess-Peachie are both lolita's who love to be kind :meow: !) -

I'm the type of lolita who likes to JOKE. Make CRUEL jokes, laugh, and be a horrible, horrible girl who can quote every episode of Family Guy or Futurama to date. But am I THAT bad of a person? I dunno. I like Doraemon. Which is a very cute, children's show in Japan. I admire children stuff, light pastel colors, etc., I want to dress in fluffy dresses, and put my hair in curls while wearing bows! I tend to be very nice all around, but occasionally I lash out a lot - especially at those who have a past for things like stealing, being a liar, etc., I have a very short temper! Grrr! And the illness I have in my chest does NOT help. It swells my intestines, and makes it so that I get frustrated quite easily, really!

I guess, though, like everyone, there are things I want to happen, that don't. Things I don't want to happen, that do. I talk with things with my friends online, you know, the casual girly things, then, the out-of-the-blue silly conversations, and even the mindless teenage drama that seems to appear out of nowhere, but yet, as much as everyone hates it - they feed off it like mindless drones. : p I admit, I do it as well. It's interesting, isn't it?
Its a sad thing - but we're human, and that's what happens.
That's why we have news stations, and documentaries. As humans, we're naturally nosy, eh?

Lately however, I find myself to be holding more and more secrets, though I cannot speak of, I assure you they're nothing bad.
I can admit a few things about myself that most teens cannot; I've never done drugs. I have never drank, I have never smoked, (and not as though its a BAD thing to smoke, I just don't admire it) and I'm quite the hopeless romantic.

Lately, (while last Saturday was the most fantastic few hours of my life), I've been in a "Well, fuck it." kind of mood. Not so... fantastic. I know I should be ten thousand times more grateful, especially with the beautiful opportunity and pure LUCK I had, I should be...

...enthused to accept life as it is - but, as I say that, I have to assure myself that life is NEVER what it seems. Things could be going smoothly, until you look behind the lines, add two and two together. What will you see? I guess it's all different for you and I.

There's a few things I wish I could look into the future to see if they were worth while doing - you know? Jobs, people, friends, Relationships come and go, what do you think about it? Sometimes I wonder.
My best friend is always there for me though :3 So I guess I don't have to worry TOO much, considering others have it ten times worse off.
Goodness. There's a girl at school who talks to me about her boyfriend cheating on her.

Her name is Claira, and shes been in love with her boyfriend for three years now, I guess they met online, but - you know how those kinds of relationships can work out. Some good, err..some not so good. My dear Clairebear has told me about how shes felt ..sad, really. Because she just cant trust her boyfriend. He lives in Ukraine, and they met on facebook. (Scary, really! but..she says she loves him.) I don't blame her. So far away? Who COULD you trust? Then again, I'm a hypocrite! My best bud is from the UK, so I can't say anything, really!

But really, she said he hid secrets from her, and it's just so awful, hearing those things everyday from her - I mean, theres just sad times between them, its a wonder WHY they're together in the first place. Niether of them loves eachother, I think they love the IDEA of being together more.
Sad really. I say, if you're unhappy now, you're likely to be unhappy later.
End it. Save yourself the trouble! It'd just hurt each other longer to stay in the relationship, right? (At least, I think so, anyway.)

If you see this Claira - really, listen to me. When you drop this boy, you'll have others lined up at your door! While you're dating him- you're just holding yourself back! Really girl : (

However. My friend ~YunaSan worked it out very well with her husband. They met online, hes from England and I've webcamed with them :') She doesn't live far from me, really - we're planning a meeting soon enough, once she gets her car fixed - and has a day free!

It's silly - the types of friends you meet online. I met quite a few in person, let me tell you - if you're really friends with someone, you'll adore meeting them in person! I can't wait to meet Johnna and her husband Steph :')

My dear friend ~animefangirl101 is turning 18 today, congrats, Autumn dear! You're an adult - just like the rest of us - and no different than the rest of us either!

Let me think, all I can ramble about today!
Well that was fun :') Lets do it again sometime! Thanks for reading (and or skimming, come on, we know you didn't read all of this!) !

  • Listening to: All You Need is Love
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Pokemon White
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
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:iconbeanyneko:
~Beanyneko Jan 31, 2012  Professional
Wah. Just remember to keep being YOU and aim to be the most awesomest you you can be!!! <3 we love you lots!!!

~ps. all the lolis i have ever met are super catty and bitchy?? you are not, you are PURE AWESOMESAUCE :3 so poo poo to that stereotype xoxoxooxoxoxox
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*steffne Jan 31, 2012  Professional Artist
Haha I really don't feel like I fit in with the standard loli stereotyping either, my artwork's probably the only thing that does D:
I've spent too much time with very crude males that spend their life on the horrific /b boards over at 4chan,
I won't mentally scar you with the crap they show me ¬¬
then my music tastes are quite unusual aswell .__.
I'm an annoyingly upbeat kinda person though, maybe that's loli-ish :D
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~Toteruu Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
oh i really do wonder what people think of me...o u o;; i can be really rude and mean when i want to... but the interwebs are a dangerous place so im more reserved u v u
and ahhh im too young to start on love LOL ;;;
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:iconshawni-kat:
i had an experience of someone backstabbing online but that was years ago. I still have made many good friends and stay true to who I am =D
One of my friends met her BF online, through an online RPG. He lived on the otherside of the US. She now lives with him and his family.
I am not a meet someone and fall in love with them kind of person but I know some work out and some don't. We just have to be careful who we fall for.
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:icontorquill:
I'M FROM THE UK AM I YOUR BEST BUD????
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:iconricharmeleon:
I've had a lot of days like this. I'm usually a really nice, easy to get along with, guy. Sometimes I can be a real dick without realizing it though.

When I do it on purpose it's always funny but when I slip up, everyone hates it.
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:icongakusangi:
Not true, I bothered to read it all since you posted it ^_^
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~alexlarar Jan 29, 2012  Student Digital Artist
I read this all, and I have to say, that I think that more than half the people on the internet don't act the way they would act in real life. It is a bit sad, but to be honest, I think it might help people be more confident outside the internet. I love Family Guy and Futurama! From hearing the way you are, I think we have much in common and I'm sure many other Lolita's do as well! I hope we can become better friends because of that <3
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*AikasCupcake Jan 29, 2012  Student Digital Artist
OMG I feel you on this one!
A lot of people on dA assume that I'm all sweet and innocent and kind...but in real life, I can be quite the bitch :XD: I like dirty jokes, I'll watch...dirty things (ahem///), I rant occasionally about people, and I can tell of someone like no tomorrow! And I know it's scary to think that if people find out about that side of you, their expectations of your personality will drop and they won't like you ;-; it's not a pleasant fear to have, I know that from experience
Which is why I enjoy the best friends I have on here who love me for who I am, for all of my sides :D
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:iconmuffinchu:
"I'm the type of lolita who likes to JOKE. Make CRUEL jokes, laugh, and be a horrible, horrible girl who can quote every episode of Family Guy or Futurama to date."

Amg we're so alike. right there. :'D
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